Grand Designs...Sort of

Quickly addressing the elephant that just doesn't seem to leave the room, I think I'm too ambitious to try and find meaningful content to post here. Why can't this just be a blog about me and my musings. It can? Cool, let's move past this then.

I'm sitting here watching the first episode of the Defenders...maybe don't expect a review later, but definitely my opinions as I work my way through.

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Stuff to look forward to. Doesn't feel like there's a whole lot of that anymore. I've got this series right now, a few movies coming up later this year, and a few vacations, but those feel like dim glimmers on the horizon. I don't really have that bright guiding light anymore in my life. I've talked about how career wise...well, rut is probably the best term to describe what that is. Love...don't get me wrong, I've got something awesome going on down in Galveston(did I tell y'all about that? Guess not, it has been like a year since I've come here. Yep, I've let a special lady hold my heart, and it actually feels warm and fuzzy now), and it definitely is one of those good-good things, but God...in a state as big as Texas, we almost couldn't be further apart.

I know...distance makes the heart grow fonder...but, fuck that right? Proximity is where it's at. I also know she's reading this. She does an exponentially better job keeping up with me than I do with her. Hey boo...sorry I suck at this whole thing. Anyways...

Right now though, we're both too rooted to be able to reduce that distance in any way. Rooted to what? Our own comfort? The routine? I dunno...I made a big deal when I moved into my house that this is where I wanted to be. I don't really know why other than this is the epicenter of my friends and family, more or less...and close to a job that...well, it pays the bills...bills that link directly to my own roots. I'm going in a circle now, but that's exactly what I'm on about. 

I'm sustaining myself so that I can keep sustaining myself. Feels like I should be doing a bit more living than...maintaining.

By the way, I'm up through episode 4 of Defenders...damn it's a hard place to stop for tonight. It's starting to get epic.

Ugh, I don't know where I'm going with this. Just that, I've lost that light at the end of my tunnel, and I'm really trying to find it again. One way or another, I think I need some kind of major change to make that light flicker back to life.

All my friends are getting married and having babies. Meanwhile, I'm sitting here getting excited about Marvel and D&D. Focus Corey...focus.

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Hope everyone had a happy Apoceclipse, and got to see it without searing your retinas.

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Keep your heads up, your minds sharp, and your hearts open...and I guess I'll try to do the same.

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